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are these the adverse effects of sleeping late? they aren't adverse per se, so i guess i could classify sleeping late as catalysts. i've had this feeling for days now, just bubbling under the surface, but not quite crossing that undefined threshold. my hands have itched to write, to draw, to take photographs and turn them into videos; to create an extension of myself. usually the need would simply quieten under the suppressing nature of slumber but alas, this is not one of those nights. perhaps i just needed some sort of validation, that i am more than the physiological nomenclature, and anatomical terms that i (try to) learn. that i am more than the mind-numbing routine of sitting in lectures amongst the masses, and sitting in the library in between lectures. validation that i, simply, am.

(and isn't that the most selfish thing you've ever heard?)

you are the best part of all the songs i love

today is the 11th of february, and Shahirah Alyssa turns 16! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY SISTER. i remember how mature and invicible i felt at sixteen, but rest assured that no matter how much older you get, you'll never surpass my level of awesomeness. if you're reading this, (either on this date or at a later date), know that i love you. also, stop being lazy and send me that damn e-mail already! muah muah. so i was looking at some of the pictures we took on my webcam and i think the pictures can be divided into three categories:-

1) us being cute

2) me being cute, you being all jkldsajlkads

3) you choking me

aah good times.

ok i think the fatigue has finally caught up with me. how long can a person last without sleep? theres so many things i need to do, but i just don't have the motivation to do them. i've been such a slacker lately, my groupmates have all these colourful diagrams of the heart and the nerves and whatevernot and all i have are some scribbles in pencils in the sidelines of my books. bah, humbug!

HAPPY 2011!

realistically speaking, my resolutions for this year is to be happy, to appreciate what i have, take more photographs and to write everyday.

here's to a good year! :D

friends are like potatoes. when you eat them, they die.

leaving for dublin tomorrow! dear God please bless our journey and give me the motivation to study while on holiday. Ameen. packing must be the most frustrating task ever. how do you pack two weeks worth of crap in a suitcase. howwww.

anyways. im so bored. my laptop's keyboard is slowly deteriorating. a few weeks ago the scrolly thingy wouldnt cooperate. now the left arrow is stuck. and my asterisk is non-existent. the last one is especially a problem, since it's such a a pain in the ass when you need to correct a typo. i'd have to explain that it was a typo, and then proceed to correct the typo. i think if i were with a group of people, stuck in a forest in the middle of nowhere, i'd probably be the first to die, because i'm just too lazy to put in the effort to save myself. har har har

i wish i wasn't so lazy. i also wish i was funnier. scratch that, i wish everyone else had my sense of humour. then i wouldn't have to explain myself for laughing when everyone isn't, i'm too lazy to explain everything to everyone. but yeah, i wish i knew how to tell jokes. i'm crap at telling jokes to people. well, i'm crap at talking to people, but jokes are always a good ice-breaker. or not. it would be rather weird if a stranger came up to you and started telling a knock, knock joke to you.

so bored. the nights are soooooo long. somedays i don't even get to see the sun. partly because england's always so gloomy, but also because i wake up really late nowadays. when i'm bored i tend to crave food, for a lack of anything better to do. i don't think i've sweated at all since i came here. my mum used to be a sprinter. i bet she's disappointed with how my sister and i turned out, we're such couch potatoes.

i think studying medicine makes you lose your competency to write a decent composition. intro, body, closing paragraph are meaningless now.

a photographic memory would be really helpful when studying histology. Y/Y?

hokay enough of this negative shit.

PATS ON THE BACK FOR EVERYONE. hoorah