is the acoustic version of your favourite song still considered your favourite song?

so i guess i should start off with a big SORRY. to everyone. i know i've been a constant no-nonsense, grade-A, slap-deserving bitch of monumental proportions for the past few weeks or so. i honestly don't know what happened. sometimes you just lose yourself, you know. and it's ugly and uncomfortable, but there's really nothing you can do but to ride it out. i guess that's what a hangover is supposed to feel like. i don't know what being nasty has to do with having a hangover, but there you go.

i'm glad we're given a few days off. i was starting to get annoyed with...everything.

in light of recent ah, events, i've realized that some things about me just have to change. specifically speaking, i need to talk more. i honestly don't usually have the urge to report to anyone about what i did that day, what i ate, what i thought about that test or whatever, but i guess it's a good place to start. the small things, i mean. before moving on to the bigger things, to the orbit-changing, heart-tugging matters. because i realize now that it is necessary. talking to others. for me, because i often now feel like i'm about to explode under the weight of it all. and for others, because sometimes it is important to let people know the little things, even if it is just to return the favour. and also because i don't want to seem like a bad friend because i don't tell them stuff. i never had the intention! it's just hard. for me. to, you know, tell stuff. not good with talking and all that. but yeah. i just want everyone (you) to know that i do feel things. wonderful things, unimportant things, bad things, it's just that i don't verbalize them too often. but it doesn't mean it isn't (wasn't) real.

okay. that was a long paragraph. i doubt anyone read that, but in any case: thanks for reading. and selamat hari raya aidiladha, have fun spending time with family. (and here i am, thinking, this is the last time i.... but i should just. stop. and just do. because nothing else matters anyway. the future, it's an uncertain fickle thing.) happy studying as well! which reminds me, i have no idea where my biology notes are. it is distressing, to say the least.

Bergossip di Pagi Raya (unscripted)

starring: iman, syamil, syabil, & alif. not forgetting, mak long.
(ages 8, 6, 8, and 5 respectively)


ah, to be young. (:

dear all,

have yourselves a wonderful raya!

jaga diri apabila berjalan raya, makan biar bersederhana (nanti kena ejek. by me, of course), jangan emo apabila budak-budak bising datang rumah minta duit raya, layan perangai cousin-cousin/mak cik/atuk dengan baik, main mercun jangan sampai terputus tangan & nyanyi lagu raya jangan sampai menyakitkan hati (dan telinga) orang lain :)

sincerely, i apologise for any wrongdoings. kalau ada tersilap cakap, or cakap with the wrong tone, or cakap the wrong thing at the wrong time. kalau ada terbuat apa-apa yang menyakitkan hati atau menimbulkan rasa emo, atau rasa macam nak jerit-jerit dan tumbuk orang yang berdekatan, tolong maafkan. sorry, tak sengaja! maaf zahir batin, inside out, outside in.

to those celebrating raya in a different land this year, enjoy banyak-banyak okay! and to those flying off during Syawal, have a safe trip. i'll miss yous lots! wait for me to come next year, InsyaAllah. :D

love,
Sarah

i am so bored without Facebook

this is pathetic.


anyhow. this antibiotic is making me feel all kinds of funny. for the record, this is the first time i've been sick and been given two courses of antibiotic. antibiotic dari Banting tak berkesan! says doktor dari Shah Alam. and she asked me to pop three capsules a day for the next five days. it's really frustrating, because the ones i got from the klinik kerajaan in banting were really HUGE (massive, really big, ginormous, etc) and made me want to throw up everytime i had to swallow them. and now, the capsules aren't half bad, but they have a weird smell which i am not too fond of.

but on the bright side, i do not have that deadly flu. my neighbours do, though. and we're being the cliche bad neighbour, not visiting or popping by to say hello or whatever. apparently "being in contact" doesn't actually mean being in contact. but more like, being in 1 metre radius of The Infected Ones. i wouldn't have known that it the doctor didn't tell me. see? this is just the kind of thing that makes people confused.

you have a high fever!/you have a fever of 39.7 degrees!

you could go for an x-ray!/go have your x-ray taken now to check for pneumonia!


now you know why i'm such a big advocate for using the right terms and correct grammar when speaking (and writing). BAD LANGUAGE KILLS!

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totally beside the point, but what homework do we actually have? my mind hasn't been in school for the past two weeks; i have no idea what's going on most of the time. ughhelpme

i vow to sleep less from now on

yesterday i was walking around one utama with my mum and there were salespeople wearing CAN I COME CLOSER t-shirts, and at that moment i really, really wished i had a I DO NOT WANT YOU IN MY PERSONAL SPACE t-shirt

DARE to dream, as they say

some things in life, are heartbreakingly sad. like losing your GDC, disappointing people, a friend say 'i think we're falling apart' indirectly, suffering from lack of sleep, having a hi-bye friend, people around you falling sick, etc

but other things, are so wonderful that your toes almost curl. like two words; "i understand", sharing macaroni, seeing two people genuinely happy together, a friend changing for the better, putting your music on shuffle and all that plays are happy, upbeat songs, typing up lab reports that are only one day late (!), etc


i was the one who was supposed to thank you, and not the other way around. thankyouthankyouthankyou:) we're going to make it, insyaAllah. ♥

tonight, i'm feeling hopeful.

light up, light up

i don't want to compete with someone who doesn't even want to be in the race. because, truth is, either way, you'd lose. and as a friend, i'd rather not see you falter that way.

words fail me.

postcards from far away

(running barefoot on the beach at night, when it's pitch dark with a thunderstorm looming ahead is the most surreal experience i've ever had.)

all in all, the trip can be summed up in three words: i had fun. and our bus wasn't involved in any road accidents, so that's a plus!

last call

off to terengganu in a bit! pray for my safe return :) i do hope that the bus doesn't suddenly experience a flat tire in the middle of the karak highway, and all the passengers are forced to step out of the bus in the middle of the night, and someone doesn't get any funny ideas about stealing my bag, and i don't decide to chase after the stranger when on the side of the road, and me being clumsy trip on a rock and needing medical attention.

sekian, wassalam.

it's that time of month again, where my teeth hurt after a trip to the orthodontist

things that make me frown lately:

1) trying to play Mario, but instead having the game die on me
2) having a friend who messages about her love dilemma while i'm enjoying myself reading mushy Valentine's Day articles
3) waking up at odd hours in the morning (3 AM, 5:21 AM, etc etc) because my roommate set the clock, but won't wake up
4) thinking (or rather, trying to think) of a plausible research question for my EE
5) the fact that i will be spending the next weekend in a hutan somewhere.
6) opening facebook and discovering that it's all in malay now
7) opening facebook and discovering that i can't read in malay

a note to self: thou shalt not play the fool and sit on ye ass all day in sem 2. weekends are exceptional.

diana: so...dah siap maths notes?
me: nope.

diana: dah habis baca the malay novels?
me: nope.

diana: business IA dah research?
me: nope.


*HYPERVENTILATES*